I got over it..slowly but surely. I quit the habits that were feeding into the negativity…the chronic pain. Sometimes, stability is a word that’s substituted for accepted insanity.
I never wanted to keep that job and I knew it shortly after the beginning. Over the summer, I took a risk and did something I enjoyed. It reminded me that it’s possible to feel that way again. It kick-started my motivation and it showed me I could do it again. I packed up my things, got rid of the excess, and got on the plane. I moved to a healing center and found more than myself. I admitted the truth and quit telling myself lies. I forgave others and I even forgave myself…for it all.