Isn’t it a bit perplexing how no answer can be the answer? I had questions burning holes in my pockets, running my battery dead to check for a response. Curiosity was breathing down my neck, threatening to do something really rash if I didn’t do something slightly bold. I told myself I was sending off a piece of my pride by reaching out, and sure enough I did. I packaged it up nice and neat, edited it a dozen times. My pride paid for the postage. Nothing boomeranged back, but this one fact still stands….i’ve nothing to regret. My ego may be dismayed, but dignity is still mine, it always has been, ever since that phone call in the alley on a dark September night in Madrid.
TRAVEL/HEALTH:The last time I wrote was pre-China. I returned from that adventure-which deserves its own page really, and fell into a hole towards middle earth. My health went rapidly down the drain and my faith started to get sucked down with it. I am mostly better now (I hope).
EMPLOYMENT:On Monday, right before I went to lunch, my boss informed me that our school was closing in 30 days. My co-teacher left early. Tuesday, it was tostata Tuesday. The kids were nuts. My co-teacher left even earlier. Wednesday, it was leftoever tostata Wednesday, my co-teacher left right when I arrived, and the kids were spawns of Satan….all day long. There was no recovering from this. The only option was to have a drink tonight…before dinner….and to make it strong. Let’s just say that aloe vera juice can be a semi-decent mixer when necessary. Tomorrow is Polar Express Thursday aka wear pajamas to school day. Anything could happen.
LOVE LIFE: Non-existent in reality. I still go back and forth between events in the past, present happenings, and the unknown future. Each of them is battling with one another, trying to win some sort of contest. Sometimes I want them all to flunk this go-round so that they will be motivated to pass the next test that God passes out.
DREAMS: I dream of a Costa Rican shoreline. I dream of exploring Geneva with my best friend. I sometimes envision a surprise run-in with my ex in Spain. I dream of a newer car. I dream of a better bank account balance. I dream of an un-furrowed brow in heaven. I dream…of a good night’s rest. I dream, of feeling at least 80% awake and 100% alive.